DoNt EvA LiE 2 mE

2006-07-30T01:18:00.000-07:00

Truly i know..all of us are trapped in the love web..no one seems to get out of it...all of us onli appear to be..haiz..meaningless..

i juz couldnt figure out wat i am doin and wat i am thinkin..

2006-07-22T08:39:00.000-07:00

I fell in love with purple..haha in the middle of night cant sleep so blog lor..now is eleven forty..

why everything seems so...i juz wan u to be happy but i am sad i cant bring u any happiness...if anything i could do to make the smile appear again i will do it...but now i juz wanna li ni yuan yi dian...i juz dun wanna be connected with u in any way..can say i am selfish but i juz dun wanna get hurt again...i rather be alone be trapped also dun wanna see u...

22 july, three more days...

i like retarded prince also three days le..u know on 19 july..the sad day of mine and of urs...too bad it isnt me who make u sad de..

dun ask me whether i am fine cause wateva i say is not wat i meant but seriously..i realli could not be bother le..haha..juz continue liking my retarded prince is enough...at least i will be high and not low...

ppla round me being suffered, changed is becoz of LOVE...love sux..and i never wanna get close to it...

this is the path u choose, bear ur own consequences...

i will by all cost stop u from destroying my peace..

my fairytale onli makes up by me=)

2006-07-19T19:29:00.000-07:00

Pearlyn said i never update my blog de..ok la i also know..nth to write ma.. haha
today 20 july 2006 some ppl 11 days liao lor...u think i dunno meh...i can pretend de ma...so wat i know and so wat i dunno...i couldnt even be bother lor...yesterday he say hi lei...luckily gt ur hi or else i will be low cause me today very very very suay to see ahem for so mani times sia...haiz...i juz enjoy liking you like this...juz maintain here

life is gettin bored sia...but i am getting on well..u know peace...no troubles to trouble...lalala...he damn cute..ok i will stop missing him...lalala..

hehe this year go through a lot alot alot of things...leaving scars,memories...haha but is over le..i hardly can remember wat happen le..all things seem so blur le...nth wateva lor...how come ne? haha cause someppl help me grow uop ma..haha=)

ok i will continue thinking of u de lalala...hehe juz hope everyone will be happi ba

2006-06-24T22:24:00.000-07:00

my mind is blank..just remember the very moment our eyes met..stunned? i dun like the feeling ..is u yet not u...sense ur sadness when u standing behind my back...how wish we could be the same again...my onli wish is that i can see ur smile again..

2006-06-08T06:28:00.000-07:00

suddenly me become so emotional...why do u wanna force me into this state ne? u know it is not the break up that destroy me de..it is ur words ur sympathy ur guilt ur actions let me truly dissappointed with u...at that point of time i cant recognise u at all..that is when i realise 1 thing..the u who belongs to me is gone..dead never eva come back le..it is very cruel to accept...lettin go is not easy..easy to be said than done...

where ever i go there is this stupid memories..u can realli forget all ma? why u didnt teach me ne?if i can choose, i will rather have no feelings realli..if lettin go is so easy...i know my frenz wont suffer this much...a sorry cant mend anything..my hurt will always be there...deep deep down in my heart..u still live there...lynn still live there is just they separated by a door...key is in ur hand...i dun wan u i onli wan him...him u know...u took him away le..lynn is gone truly gone

10 April- zai ni li kai zhi hou de tian kong, zai ye bu hui chu xian cai hong
25 April-an jing..

wo jue de wo hen ke siao...itkeaillwatinocseltusitawndaseceuesillwiotnetlufofuzumyaporfit

2006-06-08T02:32:00.000-07:00

siew hui dun allow me to post cause her name will dissappear if i post so i bo bian the first word write her name lor..haha

NEW hairstyle haha twins u know?? haha a new lynn le wor...

follow ur heart or ur brain ne? i also dunno...it is already so long le but actually it is not ba...maybe we too immature le ba..haiz..i hate myself now...

insult dignity respect....i realli cannot forget the past and everything u did and u say ba...it is bad memories u know ya...haha cant forget doesnt mean cant let go wor haha... can de la...

tell u wat me and siew hui think sth bad will happen or no!!! how??? actually who cares...immune le lor...ai ya we mature le lei....who cares le lor...tell u i not me le ma so ya...

holidays so sian...so big difference i cant even recognise me haiz...sad sia....looks i sso damn important ma?

always remember u deep down in my heart de lor...yesterday so damn stupid la...i pour out my hair jug then need to wash the whole drawer...lucky zee bear bear is not kept that or else i cry until like xiao...but hor the stupid harvest bk plus the stupid pig plus the stupid necklace plus the stupid nice bottle wat the la...make me so sad u know i wash them all...so now the onli thing is zee bear bear le..never go wash.....i think one day it will be gone too ba...haiz

moving to new house le i like it very much cause no memories ma...lalala...as siew hui say..'li kai shang xin di' correct ah i also like that think...haha...yeah heard that my new room very nice lei....haha so good...i very nice de i already make up my mind where to dump all the sad sad things liao...haha.............who's fault...obviously ur fault la

then my result sux....again is also ur fault lor...but ai ya suan le who call me so emotional ne?
say liao cold-blooded is the best de..haha

yes i wan go buy new bag haha...zinc one de very chai...haha...i type very long lei but it is ok...haiz...

haiz this holiday...pathetic 4 is still so pathetic...no chance to go out? pathetic hor? i also think we pathetic...pathetic 4 foreva jiu shi pathetic? haiz i am the most pathetic one u know why? cause i am the oldest ma...haha not funny la..

u know i very sian haiz...sian ah

finish liao the end nice right...haha yeah no one understands wat i writing nvm or else no secrets liao haha....miss u but ok la stupid lei haiz...i think siew hui gonna faint soon haiz betta go save her...bye=)

2006-05-14T23:33:00.000-07:00

Oh YEA!!!!!!!!!!! love siew hui so much..haha create such a nice blog for me

Count Down 3 weeks le...i survived le...everything back to normal back to how it is like before!!!!

From the bottom of my heart...

never ever regret loving euu.....haha hope that everything is gg on smoothly for u....i so nice bo bian la...so nice we become frenz le...all the gan ga ness gone le yeah!!

NIce phrases

Love is just a game hor?

RAining so wat rainbow will still come out then rain again...a cycle...

copyrighted by kok wai

WAt is LOVE all about...a chim chim question even me so pro also dunno and kana defeated by it le...haha so that means i still gt a lot to learn.....

me now so zhen zuo...pang bian de siew hui dao le...haiz oh no she go bang her head ..haiz u all know? kana scolded by a lamer say i lame is wat feeling? nvm next time ask siew hui scold u see...u will soon know le...

Oh yes PAthetic 4 foreva PAthetic....yea also my beloved zee bear bear dunno throw where already oh no and my boi boi in the wallet ba...HAiz so sad i lost gal gal le sorry ar...nvm find one gal gal for u and I LOVE EARTHWORM..

p.s. siewhui here.. lynn loves earthworm? omg lah!! *dao le*

ok ok thank u thank u..earthworm rox ok....kk le me crazy enuff le...haha...hope that my result will not kill me...and i moving house le wor...nearer to ben yeo yeo house lei...haha so nice of course that is not the main reason..is i can li kai this shang xin di yea...

siewhui : lynn pangseh me lohs.. sobsob.. trapped in tis shangxindi. *crying.. okay lynn you may continue..

oh i can finally writre again that siew hui ar keep snatching my keyboard oops actually not mine...ah!!!yea so mani ppl concern me

trust me u gain some u lose some...(my jing yu liang yan) siewhui: lynn jin yu liang yan cannot be trusted de. trust me=)

i know u all agree with me one see linlinlin agree, lynn ong agree,chu mei agreee,lynn ong chumei agree and there is still a lot queueing up...okok

siew hui ask me stop le we gg out liao...go see we will meet some funny ppl a not just like KBOX that time haha oh yea let's go!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-21T05:43:00.000-07:00

15 April 2006
my story interesting rite? haha finally gt time gt mind gt heart to blog le.. tok today oh my god he walk away but he didnt go into the MRT which means he is not that heartless and he cant let go...today he said a lot of hurting words in the end he said is juz wanna me to give up not meant it to be.. true? now we ok le...start all over again le ma? can it be that simple? no way maybe we both change le..

19 April 2006
go watch ice age 2 with him haha quite a funny show...feeling still the same for me but him..keep staring and thinking during the movie..i dunno..go back to the playground...playground never change but i dunno...fear of staring at him dunno y...hugging him isatestil so warm but wat he thinking ne? HAiz in a confused state..

today rest a lot..problem still there..mid year coming HAIz..i hate it..

2006-04-13T06:04:00.000-07:00

LOVE

my wish..i juz hope we can get through our one year i juz hope we can find a solution and i juz hope nth will ahppen again before mid year exams..i cant take it le...wat i do will always be wrong..i am sorry i cant be perfect...i tried my best le...fight for it le..now all depends on u le...3 years VS 1 year is this the real reason? or is juz feeling fade le? i learnt to balance le u ne? feelings fade is i change ma or is ur heart change le ne?influences...i am not that great at it...i dun think i demand too much or is it becoz i didnt demand...if i more possessive...maybe it wont happen le...memories is wat i cant let go and the hurt is incurable and unbearable..but y u seems alright? u fake it or is realli u dun care le ne?

2006-04-13T05:37:00.000-07:00

10 april 2006 is a sucky day...but it is also the day i feel that we do realli connected in the heart, mind and soul....maybe we two know is the last time le ba...i dunno if he can let go but frankly i cant ba...feelings will fade cant blame him as we didnt realli have much contact...balancing friendship and relationship is not easy...i dunno wat i should do...the memories is like printed cant delete in my mind...cant sleep had a hard time stopping myself not to cry and must face it and stand up

11 april 2006
we ok le but we realli ok? he dun wanna break le is becoz of wat? i very luan...ppl asking we break le or patch le made me damn confuse cause from a yes we patch le until i dunno maybe think so ans..so sad case...HAiz fairy tales wont happen in real life ma? everything will come to an end ma?hurting words but warm hugs..wat is it all about?

12 april 2006
he didnt come sku maybe he dun wanna pE..he didnt on his hp maybe he need some time to think ba...i confuse i sure he also confuse...am i putting him in a very difficult spot or anything has happen to him le ma? maybe i hurt him very deep last time ba. did i change? or did he change?i dun wanna stop him be with his frenz but am i wrong?

finally today...who is the real him? gettin confuse...gonna tok on sat..very scary...wat will be the result?thank for all the frenz around me caring for me...if he will be happy not to be together with me...i will leave him de i will i know...being frenz maybe is not bad too..maybe we still too young and not mature enough to handle it ba...praying..pray with me???

2006-04-09T06:38:00.000-07:00

haiz who am i?m wat am i? why i cant do anything??? am i paranoid? wat the hell..i hate u u sux...why everytime gt this kind of problem de...wan care me then care or else hack care... wat am i lor.. i not u wan then take it u dun wan throw it...i not important rite...leaving ur life i am gg to...needed u the most where u... u juz leave me alone.. so wat if u cant solve my problem...u can give me mental support and this great struggle u not with me...y and this problem i face it alone and solve it wat the...i dun expect u everyday pei wo everyday with me lor...1 week 10 secs can..also seems so difficult....gone case...i try my best le..justgive me a definite ans...dont let it hang in mid air..very xin ku... i dun wanna suffer and i am gg to learn to let it go....i just need time and i dun wan to remember u...ah!!!!!!!!!!!! y 1 week 10 secs 10 secs y?????y????wat the hell u thinkin lor...since u like that hor..nvm i also can i also can can la can la

desperation begets hope where is my hope and i did i like oh shit no

2006-04-06T20:38:00.000-07:00

Haiz...lots of problem..afraid that i couldnt take it anymore...y all these will happen to me???? love so cant be trusted..no matter how long u are together with some1, 1 of them will sure have a change of heart

EaRtH iS RoUnD
LoVe Is FaKe

so true..not that i have been hurt by him but it is like y i needed him the most he not there to support me ne? i am very tired with it and very sick of it...puttin a mask on the face smiling all day...can he sense my sadness..y i am left so helpless..i am so damn not important to him at all...luckily i gt siew hui they all pei me or else i cant survive..gt him no him also the same...

how come the most respected person is so damn bad..i hate him...sucker dont give me a piggy to hang my phone...u juz feeling guilty rite? i feel like crying when u give me and i feel like shouting at u...i have lost all my trust in u...never ever forgive u

And zee bear bear..ah thank for accompanying me sleep all day..dry my tears...thank for doing the job for him...i dun need him anymore...it is juz a sad case for me to see him and everything..i not gg to bother le..for wat..one day he will leave me too just like my ------ haha..betrayer..

love is wat? i rather dun have it dun experience it and i just hope my dearest mummy will be ok if anything happen to her u will be sorry..

zee bear bear u know he knows but did he do anything haha..haha..ya he did a lot hor..a lot until i feel so empty inside...------ u are so horrible dun do this to us

and zee bear bear no matter wat happen i know u wont leave me..haha at least there is a bear who truly will always remain by my side foreva..at least =p